Yesterday, I was still very upset with myself and the scale.
I was only at 183 and it made me angry that I hadn't made a net less of any kind after my methodical diet effort.
Angry....
Deprived...
Hungry...
Frustrated...
I was upset enough to eat an easter candy.
That didn't satisfy me enough...
I decided I would quit and eat whatever I wanted
that's when the binge happened...
I had a grilled cheese sandwich with
butter and 2 slices of cheese. 2.5 slices
of bacon, 3 tablespoons of nutella, and 2
grossilini style breadsticks, 2 cups of milk
with nestle quick (2-4 tablespoons total).
In less than an hour, I tripled my calories
for the day.
Then this morning, I went to weigh myself,
and I had lost 2lbs. It's only 2 lbs but it's a
positive difference.
I am barely drinking my water,
in part tired of flavor
in part because I want filtered water
in part because of my recent bad experiences with stevia & green tea.
So... I need to switch to something naturally
sweet like spearmint which is also good for PCOS symptoms.
I need to defrost portions of food for today,
and I need more vegetables (and an apple).
I'm out of apples.
I will persevere, and even at a -2lbs a week I'll be at
a better place than if I did nothing. I want to feel full and
satisfied. I want weight loss results.